Where do ?

Where do people go when they want to listen to sound of their mind ?

Where do people go when they want to listen to their minds ?

I think you were there

I think you were there
in everyone of my dream
holding, hugging and kissing
from the back of my foggy brain

And wake up in the morning
with a silly grin on my face
but you were gone
nothing to remember
just a silly figment of my meta dream
but you were there

So if i saw you in the corner
or in a coffe shop when i'm on a train
would it really be you
or am i in one of my dream

...

*Now, if only i could find a tune for this lyrics*

D day

this is IT !
the day !
so bring your A game
the innocent yet charming looks
the witty but not hurtful response
the smart and also caring way to talk

this is MY DAY.

Heaven

Sometimes people have to go through a series of unfortunate event. To understand, that their values didn't belong in this world. To Let go will give you a better understanding and the opportunity to rise again from the ashes, just like a phoenix soaring up to the sky.

Heaven is Dead

Wild beast

The thing that we bear for others
The things that we must do.
what we mustn't do
in the name of society, norm and values.

But sometimes, it is necessary to be savages.
To give in, to let your anger explode
Becoming the wild beast that is full of lust and hatred
Becoming the purest kind of human
that will survive
above everything

Because after all of that has passed,
you will find true calm and peace

I

I love non self centered people. And my number 1 list, is to witness a miracle, from me.

Unanswered prayer

If only someone know what I'm going through.

Be brave !

You know, there's many way that people choose how to live their lives.
There are the ignorants, the bastard, and there is the wanderer, the one that always wonder what to do and what would their live would have been.
But for most people, their live is govern by fears.

Fear of dying, fear of breaking the law, fear of god, fear of the uncertain future.
Fear of their position, fear of their place in the society, and the end fear for live it self.
Must've been sucks to live like that.
What ever the action, whatever the luckyness that some how happened to them,
they can never enjoy the things to the fullest.
Always worry what would happened next.

It's a choice, and maybe the one that is closest to the right answer is the ignorants. They don't seem to care about the future, the society, and maybe live it self. The only problem is, they don't care about anything. Because it takes a whole lot of courage to really care about something.

So...
Make a choice, don't be afraid.
Just live your life to the fullest.
Day by day, minute after minute.
Don't be afraid,
maybe society will treat you bad when you broke their rule,
and maybe , you're wrong. It just the way live is, everybody make mistake
so don't let anything stop you.
Just remember one rule, don't ever, ever ! Let your action based on the intention of hurting someone else.

In other word, be brave ! And don't give a fuck about what the world thinks !
And in the end, life will find you a path !

You

I just realize why she couldn't ever say yes.

It's because somehow it would make an end isn't it ? Your world would stop turning. Everything that is you, somehow would change. The problem is, whether you would like the change or not. I guess your action is the answer that you've found. Probably you're scared, very-very scared, that why you weren't able to believe. And I think you're probably right :)

It's such a shame that we weren't meant for each other :)

The word

So, what is life ? 

If a single living organism  live and died so soon,

Do heaven ? or Hell ? l is filled with them ? 

In that short time living, does it meant anything ? 

Or do they got a second chance, 

to be reborn with the same soul every time ? 

And if we see the universe, 

that's so wide a cross , space and time. 

Do we.. that look smaller than amoeba for them, 

matter ? 

Do our story will ever be heard, 

one hundred thousand year from now ? 

our tiny spark of light in history. 

And what do these rules that we hold on so tightly,

to obey, to follow, and to pass on. 

Would they matter to life ? 

Sometimes, a simple happiness is enough. 

Why does it so hard to get ? 

And when someone finally get it, 

then why do so many people want to take it away ? 

Life is cruel, life is random, life is not ordinary. 

Then Why ..... 

Do we even bothered.

way

More Lost Than A Child
Angry with the world
For though I'll be sorry for what i'll do
Neither of this is a concern of you

Cause I am who I am
I've become what I've dream I become
A dream where no angel, only shadow and despair

For those of you citizens of this world
My apologies
But life .....
Is not merely all about human

The times ...

There are times when you feel like, live isn't worth living anymore.

And today I've wondered. What my limit would be.

Something ...

Has changed in me ... 

Loosing home...

Why do the Aquarians travel the universe with its massive fleet
Why do the Kharak's people build a Mothership to travel the stars in a journey to take them Home.
Home...
What is home..

Its not just a place, a thing, people. Its everything that represent who you were.
So if you're planning to loose it, to leave everything behind
With nothing to comeback to,
What does that makes you ?

Never the less, I'm loosing my home ...

One more day ...

One more day, hold on for one more day. The only thing I'm holding on to. What the meaning of living if you cant see the future. What the meaning of passing the day when you feel nothing, no emotion. Just sitting here watching this blank screen. The only window that connect you with some world.

One more day, would i would be able to hold on for one more day ...

Kalau...

... semua orang berpegang kepada satu orang untuk selalu kuat. Sementara mereka berkutat dengan problem mereka masing-masing. Bukankah lama kelamaan orang ini akhirnya akan hancur juga ?

Enam Purnama Berlalu...

Akhirnya sampai juga ke tahap ini, enam bulan. Bukan waktu yang singkat tapi terasa begitu cepat berlalu.What am I doing ? What are the things that I've done ? ...

Enam bulan yang lalu, setelah membulatkan tekad. Gw membagi proses ini kedalam 2 tahap. Enam bulan pertama, dimana gw bebas melakukan apa saja, bereksperimen, membangun sebuah entity tanpa ada deadline, roadmap, atau role model. Hanya berusaha untuk fleksible dan take what ever live throw at me dalam mewujudkan keinginan gw. Lalu setelah enam bulan berlalu, di evaluasi, apakah ada yang bisa di seriusin, atau hanya sekedar keinginan, impian yang tidak punya pijakan di dunia nyata ?

Kalau memang ada, gunakan enam bulan berikutnya untuk serius, membuat sesuatu, moneytizing and turn it to business. Dan setelah satu tahun, kalau tidak berhasil, gunakan sisa waktu dan sisa tabungan untuk mencari kerja. Get back to the real life. That was the plan...

Sekarang, setelah merasakan, gw gak ingin kembali.Gw ingin berhasil di dunia ini. Kalau jatuh harus bisa bangun lagi. Kalau gagal, sedih , menangis meraung-raung lalu esok, coba lagi ! Buat hal baru, mulai kembali dari awal. Banyak yang bilang, di dunia baru ini, lu belum benar2 teruji sampai sudah merasakan sink to the bottom, not just ordinary bottom, but rock bottom !

So where am I now ? What about my evaluation ? To be honest, I don't know. Evaluation didn't seem to matter as much as before. That's what funny about this world. Today you can feel like a king, and tomorrow some how you just hit rock bottom. Becoming the lowest on the totem pool, so I learn to not carve  anything in stone.

I guess I'm kinda satisfied with where I am now. Don't have any money though. I'll be ecstatic if my position is a bit better economically, but this will suffice. So, what tomorrow will bring me ? I hope something nice. Tonight, I can only dream :)

Sleep Tight :)

....

Gak kuat lagi, gak kebayang bagaimana kalau tinggal ber-empat :(

Indonesia

Sebetulnya bangsa indonesia bukannya tidak punya kemampuan untuk bangkit dan maju dalam persaingan menjadi bangsa terdepan di bumi ini. Tetapi bangsa ini tidak pernah diberikan kesempatan saja.

Tidak pernah diberikan kesempatan, karena disaat akan maju, kekuatan-kekuatan luar akan campur tangan untuk menggoyang keadaan indonesia dari dalam. Tidak pernah diberikan kesempatan karena disaat akan maju, harta kekayaan alamnya dirampok oleh orang2 serakah yang hanya memikirkan diri sendiri. Tidak diberi kesempatan maju, karena kekuasaan hanya berputar di segelintir orang saja. Dan yang paling penting, tidak diberi kesempatan, karena informasi tentang indonesia hanya dapat diakses oleh orang-orang tertentu saja. Sehingga bangsa ini tidak mengerti apa yang sebenarnya terjadi di negaranya.

Suatu hari, semua itu akan berubah. Berikan aku satu kesempatan !

~FD

...

I don't really want to do this.